Depressive days, dismissive past
It was a difficult time. I was never sure if I was depressed or sad. I knew that something had affected my mind. I could not comprehend it in the initial days. When it progressed, I realized that I am in a web of complexity. Those were the most challenging days which I experienced in life so far. I was absent-minded. I did not know how to react to some normal circumstances. It was hard to undertake a simple decision. I stared at different things for many hours. I did not listen to classes, conversations, people, or myself. I was mentally and physically tired. I believed I would die soon. I got into a terrible state of physical health. I knew that something was seriously going wrong within me. I helplessly observed my close friends trying to figure out what I said by repeating to me what I told them. Some of them asked me the reason for my struggles to which I had no answer. I appeared dumb-faced in front of my good wishers. I had great difficulty when articulating, mak...